Thank you for coming to my Blog! I hope that you stubbled on it by accident and not because you are going through the same thing that we are! Everything that I am expressing here is REAL, it is how I feel, it is my emotions! Infertility affects everyone in different ways, and I know that your experiences are going to be different than mine! But I hope that this is comforting to you to know that you are not alone. I feel alone at times. I don't know anyone who is going through.... infertility. I just don't even like the word....
Like most women, the my dream family started when I was a little girl! I loved my baby doll, and in second grade on my first day of school we were asked to talk about our family in which I listed my mom, dad, sister, brother, and my "baby"! I still get teased about it to this day by friends who were in that class with me! The point of the story is simple, I have always wanted to be a mommy! I have always wanted to have children and raise them and watch them grow! When I got married six and a half years ago, I was ready then to start my family, I couldn't wait to see my loving husbands face when I announced that I was pregnant! I used to think of different ways that I would tell him he was going to be a daddy! But like most newly-weds reality set in pretty soon, my husband being a E-3 in the Marine Corps, the income wasn't enough for us let alone a family so 6 months into our marrige I got on birth control. I wanted my first child when I could enjoy it! I didn't want to be struggling like my parents were when they had me... So we waited... and we waited... and then I joined the Navy and my loving husband got out of the Marines.
So four years into our marrige it seemed like everything had lined up! It was time to start our dream family!!! I was so excited! The dream of being pregnant and having cravings was about to start! I was going to be a mommy and my husband was going to be a daddy! Then the announcement came... my little sister was pregnant! I was devestated! My childs birth right of being the first grandchild was stolen from me!!! Soooo silly now in retrospect, but at the time I was devestated! What was wrong with me? Why wasn't I getting pregnant like planned? Why had we waited if it was so hard to get pregnant?
So when pregnancy doesn't happen and time keeps ticking urgency set in and I went to the doctor. I was so relieved but confused when the doctor said that everything was normal with me. After I had mentioned that I had been married for four years and we only used birth control off and on with no false alarms she started asking more questions and ordered my husband to get tested... then the news came... He has zero chance of having kids! And there were no signs or symptoms that could have prepared us.
Like most women, the my dream family started when I was a little girl! I loved my baby doll, and in second grade on my first day of school we were asked to talk about our family in which I listed my mom, dad, sister, brother, and my "baby"! I still get teased about it to this day by friends who were in that class with me! The point of the story is simple, I have always wanted to be a mommy! I have always wanted to have children and raise them and watch them grow! When I got married six and a half years ago, I was ready then to start my family, I couldn't wait to see my loving husbands face when I announced that I was pregnant! I used to think of different ways that I would tell him he was going to be a daddy! But like most newly-weds reality set in pretty soon, my husband being a E-3 in the Marine Corps, the income wasn't enough for us let alone a family so 6 months into our marrige I got on birth control. I wanted my first child when I could enjoy it! I didn't want to be struggling like my parents were when they had me... So we waited... and we waited... and then I joined the Navy and my loving husband got out of the Marines.
So four years into our marrige it seemed like everything had lined up! It was time to start our dream family!!! I was so excited! The dream of being pregnant and having cravings was about to start! I was going to be a mommy and my husband was going to be a daddy! Then the announcement came... my little sister was pregnant! I was devestated! My childs birth right of being the first grandchild was stolen from me!!! Soooo silly now in retrospect, but at the time I was devestated! What was wrong with me? Why wasn't I getting pregnant like planned? Why had we waited if it was so hard to get pregnant?
So when pregnancy doesn't happen and time keeps ticking urgency set in and I went to the doctor. I was so relieved but confused when the doctor said that everything was normal with me. After I had mentioned that I had been married for four years and we only used birth control off and on with no false alarms she started asking more questions and ordered my husband to get tested... then the news came... He has zero chance of having kids! And there were no signs or symptoms that could have prepared us.
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